Light in the Darkness

I love people, I’m a people person. Being around you all just makes me feel good. I care about people so much that I would pray that one day I could help others. Ask and you shall receive. However I was looking for something a little less crazy…

A little bit before the virus really broke out, I kept feeling this nudge that I needed to get really close to God. Closer than I ever have. I couldn’t figure out why but weird things kept happening that proved God was trying to grab my attention. One day outside our house, my husband found a rock that was painted and had crosses on it. – Things like that. So I started reading my Bible and thats when I decided I wanted to read the whole thing.

When the virus hit, things were ok at first or so I thought. As things got worse, people were getting sad and feeling uneasy about the future. This is how I started feeling too. Except it was more than that. I woke up one morning ( what seemed like out of no where ) and had the most worst and tragic thought in my head. Normally when something like that happens they brush it off, but in my case, I had that bad thought replaying in my head consistently for three days. Not only that, but I felt so disconnected to my own body and the world around me. I was terrified to leave my house and terrified to be home alone. I knew I needed help and I didn’t know what was wrong with me. After doing some asking around to some doctors and family members, they all said I was depressed. YOU GUYS this was by far the weirdest thing I have ever experienced. I have not ever been depressed in my life. In fact I’ve always loved life! But because of this, things started to change. I was reading my Bible everyday and then things started to change in me.

I used to want to be away from family – now I just want to be around them as much as possible.

I used to care a lot about outward appearances – now I just want to be me

IG made me selfish, it really did. And I can see it’s doing it to other people too now that my eyes are open – I decided to switch things up and yes still share about my life but also share about Jesus in hopes all of this could help someone else

I asked Jesus into my heart when I was a little girl. But everyone strays away at least once in their life I’m sure. I strayed away big time. I still prayed at night before bed but it seemed more like a routine instead of really laying everything out at Jesus’s feet. Once all of this happened, I rededicated my life to Christ and this time I wrote down the date so I wouldn’t forget. Now it’s not like I did that and immediately I was healed – doesn’t really work like that. At least not in my case.

No. I was being tested. It was a major test of my faith and trust in Jesus. God loves me so much that He knew I wouldn’t be able to accomplish what He wants to do in my life until something insanely dramatic happened to me. He knows I’m hard headed. He knows I wasn’t listening to anyone. He knows He needed to change me COMPLETELY, even though hurting me would hurt Him too. He knew that this was for the best and EVERYTHING would work out for GOOD by helping others and bringing glory to Him. And it worked of course! I have read my Bible every single day at least once a day, I’m on track to read the whole Bible and dig deeper into it. I have prayed fervently and have a blossoming relationship with Jesus! Instead of focusing on the bad things playing in my head, I replaced them with Gods truth by staying in His word and memorizing versus. Now I am almost completely healed. One day I woke up and those thoughts just didn’t exist anymore. Sure I still think about what happened, I need to. That way I can help others going through depression because their is a way to get better and so that I don’t forget why I need to keep my eyes on Jesus every single day. If I had a chance to go back and change the situation I was in, I wouldn’t. Because now I know Gods love unlike I ever have and now that I have a great relationship with Him, I couldn’t imagine not having that. I couldn’t imagine going back to the way I was.

“You are, way maker, miracle worker, promise keeper, light in the darkness my God, that is who You are” – way maker by leeland

There is so much hurt in the world right now and it’s important to keep our eyes on Jesus. Here are some versus that are related to this exact situation and versus that helped me get through this.

“Do not fear for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

-not a verse just some encouragement- This is not for nothing. But this is certainly for something. For something more than I can see and I know THROUGH IT ALL, you walk with me.

“My victory and honor come from God alone. He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me. O my people, trust in Him at all times. Pour out your heart to Him, for God is our refuge.” Psalm 62:5

“My suffering was good for me, for it taught me to pay attention to your decrees. Your instructions are more valuable to me than millions in gold and silver” 119:71-72

“And so I tell you, keep on asking and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking and you will find. keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.” Luke 10:9-10

“You are blessed because you believed that the Lord would do what He said.” Luke 1:45

“Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. Instead, be very glad – for these trials make you partners with Christ in His suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing His glory when it is revealed to all the world.” 1 Peter 4:12-13

I hope that will bring some comfort to you today and if you need to tall to anyone please contact me or someone else who loves you so they can help you with whatever it is you’re going through.

Snowboarding at Stevens Pass

When I was a kid, I loved skating. So how hard could snowboarding be? I love trying new things and decided to give it a shot.

Some things you should know

First of all snowboarding gear is pretty expensive so if you’re wanting to give it a try, find some secondhand gear (minus the base layer, beanie, warm socks and in my opinion the gloves too, just buy those things new plus they can be used for other things too). I looked on depop, ebay, and facebook market place in my area and found everything I needed for much cheaper.

It’s nice if you know someone who knows a lot about snowboarding so they can teach you everything you need to know while you’re out there. If not, there are many youtube videos you can watch to learn how! Also the people that work at Stevens Pass are super nice and they taught me somethings while I was there too.

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Be prepared!

Wearing all these clothes and these boots actually weigh you down and can get frustrating but it is what it is. Going into this you need to know that YOU WILL be sore the next day and even that vey day you do it. Currently on some basic pain medication so trust me.. you will be very sore and wake up feeling dead. It’s up to you to decide if it’s worth it or not. 

About Stevens Pass

It’s super cute! The atmosphere is really fun and relaxing. They have a cafe if you want coffee or tea or baked goods, theres cold drinks available like vitamin water and if you are into drinking they have alcohol as well, which I heard its good to drink a little bit if you are nervous to loosen up your body. So the lodge is really nice! You can’t stay the night there but there are other hotel options not far. We stayed in Leavenworth and it was the cutest place. It’s basically Christmas all the time there so if you really like Christmas then you will enjoy it there a lot. We will most likely go back there sometime to check it out more since we were only there for a couple hours. 

At Stevens Pass the parking is limited so its important to get there a little early or they can tell you that you have to come back another day if there isn’t any space available. If you plan on going up the moutain you do have to buy lift tickets (which are also pricey in my opinion). 

Overall

10/10 for Stevens Pass like I said it’s super cute and fun. Snowboarding is not very easy to learn but you can for sure get the hang of it after awhile. It was my first time and I was already on the first lift up the moutain. You will be extremly sore! Yes this is a dangerous sport so be aware of that, I saw a few injured people while I was there. It’s really what you make of it. You can go in there looking for fun and keep it lighthearted or if your there to learn as a sport thats great too or if you feel like it just isn’t right for you then oh well and you can say you did it and just resell your gear for someone else to try!

As far as me.. I did enjoy it but I’m not sure if it’s worth the pain especially since I only would want to do it every once in awhile. I might go again and I might not. I need to not be sore anymore to make that decision.. hahaha.

 

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xoxo

Holiday Present Wrapping Ideas!

Honestly giving gifts is so much fun! Especially if you get to spend the holidays with your family! One thing I love about giving presents, is wrapping them. I found some of the cutest wrapping ideas and thought I would share them with you!

Here is a photo of some of my ideas! I went outside and decided to use nature as my special touch. Not only does it make your gifts look unique, it also shows that you put some extra work into it when reall it’s super easy to do! All you need is some nature and some super glue!

Here are some other ideas I came across!

Now what about cute wrapping paper?? I gathered my favorites of that too. Just click the image to shop the paper!

I hope these ideas get your creative juices flowing! Happy wrapping!!

xoxo

Our Favorite (Healthier) Cookies! Gluten Free!

For the past several months now my husband and I have been super cautious about the food we put into our bodies. It’s true, you really are what you eat! Your body will use everything it can out of the things that you eat, so why not feed your body the best possible that way you can be healthier and have more energy. Who doesn’t need more energy this time of year anyways???

These cookies are a much healthier version of the classic chocolate chip cookie. I have made these over and over and over again, I can’t seem to keep them around too long because we eat them all so fast!

Here is what you’ll need:

— 155g of erythritol

— 1/2 teaspoon baking soda

— 1/4 teaspoon salt

— 2 tablespoons of buttern at room temperature

— 2 teaspoons vanilla extract

— 1 large egg

— 2 cups almond flour, blanched or raw

— 1/2 cup chocolate chips ( we use the 60% dark chocolate chips since dark chocolate is better for you and tastier in my opinion! Also I don’t measure this out exactly and the more chocolate chips the better! )

Lets get to work!

1. preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Lightly grease a baking sheet or line it with parchment.

2. combine the erythritol, baking soda, salt and butter, and mix until smooth ( it helps if you mix and smash it down with a spatula )

3. mix in the vanilla, egg, and almond flour, stirring to combine. Scrape the bottom and sides of the bowl, then mix for 1 minute at medium speed.

4. stir in chocolate chips with spatula

5. scoop the dough one level tablespoon at a time onto the prepared baking sheet. You can place them fairly close together on the baking sheet as they wont spread much. Also you’ll notice the chips don’t stay super well so just do your best to pack them in!

6. gently flatten the cookies to about 3/8 ” thick, about 2″ diameter. Now they’re a bit closer together – which is ok spread wise, so long as there’s still an 1″ between them.

7. bake the cookies for 9 to 12 minutes, until their edges are starting to gently brown. You don’t want to overbake these cookies! They will be completely different.

8. remove the cookies from the oven. allow them to cool on the pan for 2 minutes, then carefully transfer them to a rack to cool completely. Do not try the cookies while they are super hot, they will not be the best and you’ll burn yourself anyways! I know it’s hard to wait but it’s worth it I promise!

9. after they cool down, enjoy!

Let me know how your cookies turn out! You can add over extracts if you want to get a little cazy like almond extract ( I would add 1/4 of this). Hope you enjoy them as much as we do!

My Favorite Clean Beauty Products

I have been very cautious lately with the products I am using for my beauty routine. One day I decided to look up some things that were in my current beauty products and holyyyyy cow. I did not like what I was reading. My husband and I did this for our food too! But thats a story for a different day. I then decided to make some changes, some much healthier changes! I did some research of some Clean Beauty brands. Ones that are cruetly free and paraben free (although some people might say parabens aren’t bad. To each his own I guess).

I searched for a long while trying to find clean beauty products and which ones would be the right one for me. Through several other bloggers I’ve heard of all different brands but during my research there was one in particular that stood out to me. I actually found it on Amazon while searching “clean beauty”. It’s called Honest Beauty and while reading about this company I found out that Jessica Alba is the creator of the brand which is super cool because duh shes gorgeous, but also cool because I’ve never heard of it before and then it made me wonder if a lot of other people haven’t heard of it either. So I picked out some of their products through Amazon to give them a try. I wasn’t sure what to expect because I have very sensitive skin, I mean I change one thing in my skin care routine and just breakouts everywhere. I’ve been using these products for 2 weeks now!

Below are a list of the products I tried (with links!) and what I think about them

  • Magic Gel to Milk Cleanser : First of all they sell several different cleansers ( 3 I think! ) and I picked the one I thought would be best for my skin type. Since I still get breakouts every now and then, I wanted something gentle but will also get the job done. I wash my face with it every morning and night. This cleanser is also made to take makeup off. I take my makeup off with a wipe but always feel like theres still more makeup on, I do not have that problem when using this cleanser! Pros: It doesn’t break me out, it feels really really nice, it does take the rest of my makeup off, it doesn’t dry my face out and I have no idea if this is related to the cleanser beacause it’s a “clean product” but my pores actually look smaller! I wouldn’t trade in this cleanser for anything.
  • Deep Hydration Face Cream : I have combination skin, at least that is what I have been told but honestly I feel like my face is on the dry side. I love having a dewy complextion just as my personal reference and this does it for me. I have tried so many moisturizers and this one feels like butter on my face. and I love it. It soaks into your skin giving you a healthy glow and completely safe to wear under makeup! Also it smells like a flower field in a bottle. herb central. I can’t get over this one. Obviously it also doesn’t break me out.
  • Eyeliner : I will not use another eyeliner ever again. I was messing with using a little jar with a brush and brushing my eyeliner on. This is a brush with the eyeliner already on it. Its a liquid liner and extremely user friendly! Also beyond easy to remove if you mess up. Since this is a clean product, they use different materials to make the eyeliner and instead of it feeling like I’m putting straight up tar on my eyeballs, It slides right off but only when you use a makeup remover. This doesn’t smudge or come off during the day!
  • Mascara (with a primer!) : Do you feel like you could have great eyelashes but they don’t curl? or maybe they used to curl and they don’t anymore.. or maybe they just aren’t long enough! Your prayers have been answered. You’re welcome. I have always had pretty good lashes but over time I felt like they didn’t want to curl anymore. I’ve used so many mascaras and always found that I liked the drug store brand better than most brands at Sephora! Nothing was what I really wanted though. This is now my holy grail mascara and who even knew you needed a primer?? One side of this is primer and the other side is mascara. You put the primer on first and before putting the mascara on you want to wait a few minutes to let the primer do it’s magic. My lashes have not look this long since I was a kid (and without making them look like spider legs!) No clumping, Not messy, just beautiful long lashes and this is coming from someone who used to wear false lashes daily!
  • Invisible Blurring Powder : Who here has been personally victimized by the white powder?!? If you aren’t careful in choosing the right brand of powder, you could end up with clumpy makeup or looking like you just saw a ghost or even worse...fine undereye lines! I put this powder to the test. worked out with it on, went the whole day with it on. Would you believe it if I told you that this solved almost all my undereye problems? I mean it’s not magic that takes away dark circles but it works great when using an undereye concealer to keep it in place and stop it from creasing. Laura Mercier who???

These are the products I have used so far and in case you didn’t notice, I speak very highly of this brand! I think Jessica did an amazing job providing quality skin care that is also clean! She has a whole makeup line, skin care line, hair, and even things for the baby too! If you decide to try one of these products let me know! I will be trying hopefully all her products because I just love them so much!

My Breakout Secret

Breakouts are terrible I know.

They always come at the worst possible time too. It’s like your face knows exactly when to have a little freak out. Honestly it took me years to find out what works for my skin and what doesn’t but, no matter what I use on my face as a cleanser, I always use a treatment for my problem areas. Most of the time my breakouts end up almost gone by the next day!

So today I’m going to share with you my little secret weapon.

So let me tell you about Acne Free which is specifically for dermatologically-inspired products. They are known for being the #1 acne kit in retail stores and the best part is it’s affordable! Now treating breakouts is made simple and easy to follow. I love Adapalene Gel is used as a daily acne treatment after you have washed your face. Studies show that compared to other retinoids, Adapalene Gel 0.1% causes less irritation to the skin. The other cool things is.. this product was previously only available by prescription but now you can find it in stores such as: Amazon.com, Walmart, and Walgreens and you will be able to get this product at CVS in January 2020.

This product is great for anyone looking to try a prescription strength acne-fighting ingredient. Adapalene Gel also does not contain benzoyl peroxide, which means it won’t bleach your sheets and towels! I will link the product below for anyone wanting to try. If you happen to try it, I would love to know your thoughts!

You can purchase it on their website HERE

or for Amazon.com click HERE

This is a sponsored post in partnership with Acne Free and the InfluenceHer Collective. All words and opinions are my own.

What Is Your Calling?

What am I meant to do for a career? What path am I supposed to take? Is it weird that I have no clue?

So many people have these questions! I’m sure at one point in everyone’s life they had to question if they are doing what they were meant to do. In fact I was struggling with this myself for several years SEVERAL. I had so many interests but none of them were “of the norm” or what people thought could give you an income at that time.

In high school it seemed like everyone was applying for colleges and they seemed to have an idea of what they wanted. One thing is for sure, I was not one for following in someone else’s footsteps. To be honest.. I tried and let’s just say me and learning the inside of the human body don’t mix. For years I did random jobs that honestly wasn’t fulfilling this need I have to create things. So how did I get from there to here?

My husband and I were talking one day about how when you’re little you tend to gravitate towards certain things. Sometimes before you can even do anything else. There’s something programmed in us that make us who we are and what we were meant to do.

1. Writing – when I was much younger and I learned how to write, I used to carry around big notebooks and sit and write and write and write until my fingers had blisters on them. I would fill up the pages and buy a new notebook to write in. Unfortunately I don’t have those notebooks anymore.. but I wish I knew what I wrote in them.

2. Art specifically drawing & painting – I remember my sister being super into art too. We used to watch Bob Ross together and paint.

3. Photography- I remember taking photos and editing them to make them look super cool. I wasn’t sure what I liked more taking the photos, being in them, or editing them. Now sometimes I do all three!

4. Fashion Designer – I specially remember sketching clothing ideas and I remember drawing a coat and asking a family member if they would wear this.

So I’m not a Fashion Designer… yet.

All of these things are a part of me and I realized that I’m doing all of them now (#1-3)!

So if you’re feeling stuck.. unsure of what is going to happen next. Maybe all it takes is remembering what your passions are. Do you like helping people? There’s jobs for that! Dancer? Singer? Artist?

Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t make money from doing these things because that is not true. As long as you are persistent and you have a clear vision of what you want. You can make it happen!

I know I haven’t posted..

To be honest..

There’s a lot of stupid reasons why I haven’t been writing.

#1 Reason being I’m a so called “influencer” and people always tell you, you should only be writing or doing something that holds value or no one will pay attention to it. – this is extremely sad but also partly true. These days if you aren’t talking about something beneficial to the person they most likely won’t care about it.

This honestly sucks for people like me. Creators like me.. artists.. writers.. story tellers. Everything is becoming so saturated that you have to be extremely unique or at least know the right people in order to even get noticed long enough. When people heard that you could start making money on Instagram everyone gravitated towards it. Who doesn’t want to work from home and get free things right? It’s that kind of mindset that ruined our reputation.

Now it doesn’t matter if you’re creative or not. Now it doesn’t matter if you spend hours putting together a photo shoot. I see tons of people that literally just take a selfie with a product now. What creative thought process went behind that?? You did it just so you can get something for free?? Because that’s not what the rest of us are out here doing. We stand for something. For an artistic outlet, cruelty free products, sustainable fashion instead of fast fashion.

There’s a reason for what we do and I feel like a lot of people don’t understand that. Now it’s hard to see the difference between someone who truly stands for something or who stands for nothing (thank you algorithm). So I’ve been frustrated about this in case you can’t tell and I know I’m not the only one.

After writing that I realized something..

the only way to try and make a difference is if I don’t stop. Sooner or later people will see the difference between the two… right?

#2 writing has always been a passion of mine. Writing.. drawing.. painting..photography.. editing.. all things that make me, me. I don’t have “hot new tips to get insta famous” or “hottest celebrity style you need to copy right now”

I’m not the “it” girl.. the “how to girl”.. unless if it’s how to style your new  Fall boots then I got you girl!

I used to consider my blog my own diary of things that I love, thoughts I had.. places I’ve been.. and if people wanted to know more about what I was liking or writing about then great! If not then who cares? Like I said before.. writing is a part of who I am.

I got into this.. what’s the point attitude. Then I thought that was stupid. If it’s something I love then why not do it anyways? Maybe only one person will read this blog post but that’s fine.. (hi mom!) at least I can say I’m doing what I love and love what I do and that’s something not a lot of people can say.

So I’m back. writing about life and stuff.